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“Why, Lord? Why am I here?”
Not a day passes by when I ask God that.. or I think that. As much as I have no doubt in where I’m supposed to be right now in my life, I can’t claim that it’s easy… because it’s not. Away from absolutely everything and everyone I know in my life is a RIDICULOUS reality to me. It’s been almost 4 months (already) and living here in Japan is still surreal. It’s hard living here. It’s hard living on my own. Don’t get me wrong, I’m okay! God is providing in every way possible. But I can’t help but think, “Why? Why me? Why am I here?” I know I’ll be used/am being used for things that I cannot see right now. All I want to do is be used by Him, for any and every reason to bring Him glory wherever I go, whoever I’m with, whatever I do. I just pray and hope that I can be a light to those that need Christ. Oh Lord, this world needs You. The people I sit next to on the train, the people I teach, those that I see every day, need YOU. I doubt myself so many times and my being here, but God constantly reminds that I can’t understand why, at least not yet. As much as I question myself, I know my God believes in me and what I need to do here, whatever that may be. I am a mere instrument and regardless of me questioning my own worthiness, I am LOVED and because of that love, I am made worthy.
Thank you Kat and Robbie for allowing the Lord to work through you to write this beautiful prayer. I am UNBELIEVABLY blessed to know you and to have heard this song.
This world needs Christ. Without a doubt, hands down, I’m affirmed, and reaffirmed each and every day, I need to be a shining example of compassion and never-failing love.
Praise the Lord for being inspired to write a serious blog. =)
